Last night, for the second time in a week, I had a dream
from which I gleaned some valuable insight into my meditation practice. As
with my previous dream, at first there was little to grasp on the surface to suggest it
had any connection to meditation; the characters and events passing
before my eyes seemed quite pedestrian and unrelated to any significant spiritual
meaning or theme.
In last night’s dream I was at sea adrift on a small fishing
boat. I was sitting on the rear deck of
the boat with my old friend Jim M– who was correcting me on a matter of
technique. “Don’t sit that way,” Jim
advised, “but kick your legs up in the air as if you’re doing a bicycle pump
exercise.” I tried to kick my legs
upward but something held me back. “Open
yourself up to the sea and salt air,” Jim explained. “”Just kick upward and let go!” Then I woke
up.
Once again, lying in bed, it took me a while to puzzle this
over and understand the dream’s meaning.
The first clue, I realized, was the identity of my friend Jim. Back when I was a young lawyer on Wall
Street, Jim was a junior partner, a few years older than myself, someone who I had
worked closely with and considered both a friend and a mentor. In the parlance of Wall Street lawyering, he
was something of a rabbi or guru to me, someone in whom I had placed
considerable confidence and trust. Not
that Jim, then or now, knows anything about meditation, nor would he be
considered (as the well-heeled investment banker he is today) particularly
adept in spiritual matters. But as I am
developing my instincts for dream interpretation, I realized that Jim had
appeared in my dream as a stand in for a guru or spiritual advisor, who was
there to provide me with advice that should be given careful consideration.
And what of Jim’s advice?
How could kicking my legs up in the air be considered helpful meditation
advice? I mean really – isn’t the whole point
of sitting Lotus style to better settle yourself on the mat, instead of upending
yourself and rearing your legs skyward?
But then I had a second realization.
This bit of dream advice was directed to my subtle body and not my
physical body. And the subtle body may
move in a way directly opposite to the physical body. This, as I puzzled it out, is precisely how
to unleash your inner qi as you
meditate, legs thrusting up instead of pressing down into the mat. The image of being upended, meditating with
legs kicking into the air, may be one way to understand the wisdom of The
Secret of the Golden Flower – the whole
work of turning the light around uses the method of reversal.
So now, as my guru Jim advised, I’m learning to refine my
meditation technique -- kicking my subtle legs skyward, pedaling, in fact, as
the Golden Light shifts and turns.
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